Dear God, That Was Unexpected

Dear God,

Remember the other day when I asked You to send someone our way that we could be a blessing to? And remember how not long ago I asked You to take me out of my comfort zone? And remember how a little while back I had asked You to teach me a little bit about what it meant to serve You and it actually cost me something?

Ok, well, I guess I didn\’t expect You to answer all three of those, like, at the same time.

For real, though. I wasn\’t expecting that.

But, since You have, and since You are sovereign and all knowing and never make mistakes, I\’m now asking you for a little bit a lot of wisdom. And by a lot I mean A LOT. Like, the biggest dose You can give me without my brain exploding.

And, also, since You were so quick to answer those three requests I mentioned above, could You also answer this one really quickly?

You\’re awesome. Seriously. I am literally in awe of You and who You are.

I looked up the definition of \”awe\” and it means: \”an overwhelming feeling of reverence, admiration, fear, etc., produced by that which is grand, sublime, extremely powerful, or the like\”

That\’s basically a perfect description of how I feel right now.

But also, I feel overwhelmed by my inadequacy. I\’m overwhelmed by my lack of faith, my selfishness, my helplessness, and my overall inability to go more than five minutes without once again relying on myself rather than You.

So thanks for being all that You are and never giving up on me and for loving me enough to stretch me and grow me. You\’re so good like that.

Love Your Modern Day Doubting Thomas,
Ashley